"Monster...how should I feel?"

Wow...this hurts.
Why the fuck do I bother being honest??
(I told Art that I used to fool around with JD...a long time ago....before he and I even met!)

Art: Are you mad at me?
Me: No, not at all! I figured you were mad at me!
Art: Babe, I'm not mad at you!
Me: You keep saying that, but it feels like you're being distant with me.
Art: I'm just a little disgusted that's all.
Me: With me?
Art: Kinda. Its hard to explain. Don't worry about it.
Me: Oh.

Fuck....

"Console the mind, I take it in the lips of pink I kiss..."

"...Lonely sky, the more you take the more that I give in"

I feel like there's a riff slowly but surely growing between us.
It's not the same.

(It's only been two months...what the fuck?!)

I wish I could explain this feeling better.


This is my only place to vent btw.
My LJ is too "known" and I have no friends.
Well...no friends I can talk to.

I'm very lonely.

So this is love....dun-dun-dun-dun

Apparently he loves me...